We all have emptiness inside

We're walking in the air

It snowed here yesterday! (: So I took pics with Minja (she has a blog too, go check it out).

Today I apologize for being so moody, again.

Is it too late to die?

She woke up too early. Not even a part of her was curious to see a new day rising. She wished that she could just melt into her bed. And the last two hours of sleep time passed by her as she was praying that someone would just come and take her away. She was so sick of her too small world that killed her, just because nothing ever changed. It was just ordinary. Usual. Plain. Every fucking day. But just like always she still went out to her tiny world. Faking a smile isn't that hard, you know.
She needed air. She needed space. She needed to live. She needed to escape. Escape these dead pale city lights that screamed her name.

Hello hello.
Well I've finally decided that since now I'm just gonna pretend happy even when my psyche is trying to kill me. :) And yes I hate pretending, but see how this --> :) makes you more satisfied than this --> -.- ? So I guess I'm doing a favor to my friends if I don't talk about what's really on my mind, ever again. :) 

Yaaay ain't this world a better place already when we add some fake smiles and laughs somewhere in the middle of this fucking acting??? :)

And about my day: I visited my brother and bought that book.

Almost forgot, :) :) :) :)
Have a nice life <3

God damnit.

Shopping myself happy...

I thought that it might be time to post something about what I've bought so here are some pictures. (:

My new favorite perfume <3 (:

Mom bought me these shoes. I'm still not sure if I'm gonna wear these or not. :D

Hairspray. A reeaaally big one.

Once again, new skullcandies.

My bag and some stuff I usually carry around with me.

Sex and the city 2nd season

<3

I think I'm dumb. Or maybe just happy

Sit in the sun
Fall asleep
Wish away
Soul is cheap
Lesson learned
Wish me luck
Soothe the burn
Wake me up 
I'm not like them
But I can pretend

~Nirvana - Dumb

Halloween outfit... :D

We've had TET (getting to know to worklife stuff idk) last two weeks so NO SCHOOL. :3
And next week is fall vacation and I have no clue what I'm gonna do but I'll sleep a lot for sure.
What should I write about.... Friends, good food, work, camp, music, shopping, assholes asking to be punched.... That's what my life's been made of lately.

Today I apologize for falling to my thoughts when I'm with my friends.

The best part of me was always you

Where did I go wrong?
I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Hi (:

I'm finally kinda happy again. Probably because I don't have to meet few people in a while (I don't have to go to school for 3 weeks). Next weekend I'm going to a camp again. 

I just need someone to prove that I'm good enough. For everything I want to. 

^ lyrics, pure love <3

My wish for you
Is that this life becomes all that you want it
To your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small 
You never need to carry more than you can hold
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to
I hope you know somebody loves you
And wants the same things too
Yeah, this is my wish

River flows in you

Hi
We had a little birthday party last night (me and my friend are finally 15 so we had common party) and today we went to restaurant and there's some foodporn and random pics.

Hooray I don't have school for 3 weeks! <3

And those shoes: love :3

Phone cam quality <3

Like a curse you haunt me in my dreams

"Don't dive too deep, you can drown", my mum used to yell at me when I swimmed. I was four years old. When I was younger, I thought I'd live forever. No, every single second I'm closer to death. You're closer to death. But that one day, when I was swimming on a sunny day I realized for the very first time, that our souls can be forever young, but they depend on a weak body. Thin. Fragile. Life is so faint.

Hi. Everything is fine and blah blah blah.

I've got one huge dream. Everyday I wonder if I'm good enough, can I make it and do I have what it takes. I look at all these beautiful and talented people around me and my hope starts fading away. Today I realized that if they can do it, I can do it. We're all just humans afterall.