The worst things in life come free to us

I think I should post something special sometimes. I'm always just telling about my day. But I think I should write about these last few days.

I've been with my friends, again. Yesterday I visited one of my school mates and she has a cute little donkey. :D And horses and sheep and dogs etc.

But as you might've noticed I don't make my blog challenge really often and in the actual order but now I'm skipping challenges to challenge 16 - My future

1 - Introduce yourself
2 – My hobby
3 –  What I ate today
4 – What is love?
5 – My day
6 – My best friends
7 – Today's outfit
8– What's in my purse?
9 – One of my dreams
10 – One of my good memories
11 – What I'm regretting?
12 – This upsets me
13 – This brightens my day
14 – This makes me cry
15 – I'm afraid of
16 – My future
17 – On my playlist
18 – My make-up routine

Right now I'm in comprehensive/primary school, (I guess it's kinda the same as high school in the U.S.A.) moving to ninth and last grade. I'll try to do my best in school next year because I'm trying to get to musical high school after ninth grade. I don't know should I call it musical senior high school? But anyway. I won't be a musician but music is something bigger to me than for most so that's what I love to do and that's why I want to get to school where I can learn as much about music as possible. And at the same time go to high school.

I haven't decided yet what I want to be or do when I grow up. Maybe I would be happiest as a music teacher in primary school. But I know that I could have much more money if I went to law school. And most of all I want to show everyone that I can be anything I want, no matter how much it takes. But is it wrong to hide the only passion you have just to show off? I don't know. But of course, I just want to be happy. 

I'd like to live in a big city, maybe in the Europe, maybe in the U.S.A. when I'm still young. But when I'm older I want to live in a peaceful and nice neighborhood in the U.S.A. But when I'm 50 I want to move back to Finland. These are quite big dreams, and language can be a problem.

I still have to return to the music thing - to most people music is a nice rhythm, lyrics that fit to your mood, a good singer and a nice melody that stucks into your mind. That's great, but for me it's just so much more. For me sheet music is a picture, a story that goes through my head and turns into music. It's wonderful. It's not just the piano I love to play, I love to play everything. I'd like to play every instrument well. I'd like to lead a symphony orchestra. I'd like to be in a band. I'd like to make the music loud, powerful and also quiet, tender and still strong. Something beautiful, because music makes us see, feel, move and sit down for a while. Music is really a part of my life, and when I think which one is the controlling part, me or the music, it's clear that music controls me. And I appreciate everyone that plays an instrument, no matter what they play.