Thrilled

Tried to look sad and suffering in that right one, I'm reading a book for a school project :D

An example of my clear notes for that same school project :D

I was supposed to post a week ago but I've been doing so many kind of things during my holiday, that I haven't really had any time to spend on computer.

 Weather has been beautiful and I've met my friends and relatives. :) My sleeping habbits are fucked up once again. Yesterday morning was sunny and perfect for downhill skiing, so that's what I did. First three hours were nice and I enjoyed it, but then the sky clouded up and it became hard to see the surface. Well, that was nothing but then it started to rain and I left home. I spent the whole night watching movies (movie night, some kind of event for teenagers :D) and I slept from about 6 AM to 2 PM.
Can you believe it, I've almost started doing sports? :D At least I've been jogging and making some random ab workouts lately.

And yea everything has happened but I'm too lazy to write about it. :D Anyway I'm happy. :)

I realized one day, that I've been so wrong for a long time about being personal. I've been a little different and stubborn always. I have thought that  a "normal life" is a wasted life. And I still think so because sure as hell I'm going to be stubborn all my life. But anyway I've thought that if I make reverse decisions than others I'll be happy, strong and independent. That's why I thought that I'm never going to get married. I won't be a mother. I won't settle down, at least before I'm 40. I won't live in Finland all my life. I won't dress as vogue wants me to. I won't work as anything that'll only make me burn out. 

I thought that if I do otherwise than people usually do, I prove that I don't care about their opinions and I make my own decisions. But am I making those decisions actually by myself? If I think everything reverse than others, then their way of thinking still affects me. I realized, that I'm not boring, trapped, resigned or surrendered for the society if I marry the one I love. If I do the same thing as everyone else, it doesn't mean that it's not my own will or that I do it only because everyone else does. 

I still think that people are satisfied with their lives too easily. We should demand more. We all know that usual pattern that most of us follow in their lives; study, graduate, get a job, meet the love of your life, get married, move into a big house in a peaceful neighborhood, have kids, raise them and keep working, wait for death. I hate it. It's wrong. It's not any damn rule you just must obey. Remember, you choose. This way of life is not the only option. The world isn't complete yet, so I'll continue trying my hardest to be the change I want to see in the world. That's why I'll keep making decisions that are different, because that's the only way to change something. But now I know, that I have been too harsh with my definition of a personal human. Get married young or have kids if you want to, I finally understand that it can actually be your own will and make you happy.

I tried to photograph stars but I guess it should be done somewhere more far away from other light

Have a fun weekend. :) I thought that it would be nice to start thanking for things besides apologizing so here we go:

Today I apologize for not taking as much time for relaxing alone as I should.

Today I thank for all my senses, so I can hear the harmonius chords of music, taste the saltiness of seawater, smell all those beautiful flowers of spring, touch the hands of the people I love and see how wonderful world is in all these colors.

Wow it's March already. :) Summer is coming, yaaaaaaaaay.

Well this was a long one :D

Bye bye :)